In the past year - we have lost 2 great men - and sent another off to war. They both left us while Scott was deployed - or soon to be deployed. I know this was hard for him - he could not process it like the rest of us. He did not have the support of family near him. I know they are both out of pain - but somedays this thought does not ease the pain in my heart. I went hunting with my brother a few weeks ago - there were a few times that I had to look away he reminded me of my dad so much. I will appreciate this at some point, but right now it hurts. Some days I am ok - others I am not....this week I am not. Maybe because we are at the 6 month mark. I don't know. I know the pain will not go away - but it will get easier to deal with.