So my baby is in Indianapolis this week. He left Tuesday and will be back Sunday. He is there for the FFA National Convention. FFA - Future Farmers of America - kind of funny for a kid that goes to Kearns High and never stepped onto a farm until his Junior year in high school. They attended a concert with Lady Antebellum and Easton Corbin. They were going Amish hunting on Thursday. Not sure what other fun things they will be doing.

I miss him - but I know this is good for him. I encouraged him to go. He was worried that it would cost to much. Yes it was expensive - but I am sure it was worth the $$$. Isn't that what mom's 2nd job is for ;) .

In the past year - we have lost 2 great men - and sent another off to war. They both left us while Scott was deployed - or soon to be deployed. I know this was hard for him - he could not process it like the rest of us. He did not have the support of family near him. I know they are both out of pain - but somedays this thought does not ease the pain in my heart. I went hunting with my brother a few weeks ago - there were a few times that I had to look away he reminded me of my dad so much. I will appreciate this at some point, but right now it hurts. Some days I am ok - others I am not....this week I am not. Maybe because we are at the 6 month mark. I don't know. I know the pain will not go away - but it will get easier to deal with.

Wow - it has been sooo long since I have written anything. What a year?

I feel like we have been on a roller coaster.

Emotional

I am very emotional today. With the shooting at Fort Hood yesterday - just seemed to bring home that my oldest boy is going to war in just a few short weeks. Kevin and Chase keep telling me - "He's on a ship he'll be fine" - that doesn't calm my nerves - especially when you see things like Fort Hood. I am trying to be strong because I know there is absolutely nothing I can do but hope an pray. God please take care of my baby.

I really need to work on this more- My goal is to get my new computer set up (once I get a desk) and get the scanner attached and start scanning pix and things. I need to learn how to do this better so I can share info.

WALKING

I have starting walking. I started maybe a little over a month ago - off and on. The last 3 weeks or so I have been pretty faithful going in the mornings before work. Beautiful time of the day. I was averaging a mile or so a day. This weekend I increased my distance - kind of by accident. Sunday I just started walking and did not stop - I walked maybe 2 1/2 miles. So I thought- hmm I can do this. Monday I walked a distance of 4 miles = 1 1/2 hours. I did it again Tuesday, Wednesday and today. I am so proud of myself - but I am so sore. My shins are very sore - Yes big sister I did stretch - before during and after I walk. I find stretching during the walk makes your body feel better and can keep going. Tomorrow I go into work earlier so I won't have the same amount of time to walk - but that's OK, I will make it up doing something else - or walking at night with my family. Walking - it's a good thing.

I GET TO BABY SIT ISAAK!